How many of us are working to manifest a life of joy and fulfillment? I know I am. And though I can see so many successes that I’ve had, I know that it can get so much better! So what’s been holding me back?
I recently finished listening to the audiobook of The Power (can you tell I love Rhonda Byrne? Read her books if you haven’t. I recommend them to people so often I feel like I should start a NPO to fund buying them in bulk and go door-to-door like a Jehovah’s Witness or a Mormon asking people if they’ve heard the good news). The Power is the sequel to The Secret. Anyway, in it, she’s talking about keeping a positive, loving attitude and she made a point that I hadn’t really thought of before: just feeling “OK” is not feeling “good”. I can feel the difference between when I’m really, truly happy – when I’m focusing on things I love, things are going well, I’m in a good mood, I have energy – and when I’m just “OK”. “OK” means I’m here; I don’t feel awful, but I don’t feel wonderful. I’m awake, but not energetic. Things aren’t falling apart, but puzzle pieces aren’t falling into place, either. Things just “are”.
For me historically, “OK” was “good” – because the alternative was “horribly depressed”. When you’re on the low end of the spectrum and a good day is one where you don’t feel miserable, you kind of lose perspective as to what “good” truly feels like. So I have improved since I read The Secret for the first time and decided to take things into my own hands and change my life – I went from “horribly depressed, afraid, stressed, and exhausted” as my modus operandi to “calm and okay” as my norm. That’s a great improvement. But when you want to really make a joyful life, you’ve got to have a joyful attitude.
I’ve had moments where I really felt that joy – but so far, “OK” is still my baseline. Now don’t get me wrong – that’s a much better baseline than the pit of despair. But I want my life to be wunderbar, not just “OK”.
From here, it may seem like a daunting task to make that internal shift from “not bad” to “great!” But from that pit of despair, it seemed like a daunting task to not be depressed on a regular basis, and I successfully changed that, didn’t I?
So, one of my methods to climb another rung on the attitude ladder has been to find different ways to be grateful. I have come up with various games and practices to just think about things I love, am grateful for, and am manifesting in my life. So for instance, one of the things I am manifesting for myself is a car. I mentioned before that I’ve never owned one, and it would make my life so much easier to do so! So every day, when I am thinking of things to be grateful for, I give gratitude for my car that is on its way to me. I envision in my mind already owning it. I picture spontaneously going to visit friends and it being a quick and easy trip. I picture buying whatever I want at the store and not worrying about if I’ll be able to carry it, or if it will fit in my grandma cart if I’ve got that along. I picture driving with a friend up in the mountains. I imagine giving someone else a ride.
Yup, I’m enamored with Smartcars. Specifically that one – I’ve already configured exactly what I want on their website. I think when I get my Smartcar, I shall name him Einstein. Because he’s smart. And that’s how I roll. 😉
In coming up with these gratitude practices for myself, I had a stroke of inspiration: I should put together a book of Gratitude Games. So that’s what I’m going to do!
I’ve been thinking of how it should look: a paper book should be easy to write in, so people can do some of the written exercises right then and there. But perhaps a binder would be better, as they can re-arrange the order and do the ones that work for their path that day. Ooh, an app! How do I develop an app? Maybe an interactive book on iPad – they have apps where you can build and publish for the iPad, on the iPad! I need to manifest myself an iPad! But then I still need to make an app for non-iPad users! And a paper book for the technologically disinclined! And an e-book for e-readers!
…this is how my brain works when it latches onto an idea. Sometimes I need to tell it, “Slow down, Turbo!” So I got out a pen and paper (low tech) and started making a list of gratitude game ideas.
I still don’t know how I’m going to form the book (app! paper! e-book! interactive!), but that will come when it’s ready. I have not given up on The Book, but I feel like the Gratitude Games is a stepping stone on the path toward its completion. Perhaps I will be so grateful to get a book done, I will manifest… getting another book done!
In the meantime, I am compiling an ever-longer list of Games, and sending love to Einstein.