For those of you familiar with The Law of Attraction, you know what I’m talking about when I say sometimes it feels “forced.” I feel a little Candide in me, repeating over and over again that I Live In The Best Of All Possible Worlds, until I truly believe it. Kind of like when you’re in a foul mood, and if you force yourself to smile, even if you don’t feel it at first, the physical act triggers the emotional feelings that normally accompany a smile (science!). Some days, when it’s feeling forced, I can get over myself and just keep at it, confident that it does indeed work (it does). Other days, I’ve got my grump on and I feel like I’m allowed to be grumpy today, godd***it!
When I’m having one of those “Get off my lawn!” days, once I have reveled in my pissed-offedness like a rebellious teenager and can see the path I’m headed down, I try to step outside of myself and look. First, examine the little things that are teeing me off. If I was in a good mood, would that really piss me off or be laughed off? If the latter is the answer, then I have to look for the real reason for the grump. I try to think of the possible logical reasons why I’m grumpy. Is my blood sugar low? Am I sleep deprived? After so many years of dealing with those issues, I darn well know they can tank a mood faster than you can blink. Sometimes the solution is as simple as eating a balanced meal.
But sometimes, it’s more deep-seated than that – especially for those of us who very purposefully are examining ourselves, our presumptions, our sense of self, our beliefs, etc., on a mission, as it were, to grow and better ourselves and by extension, the world around us; releasing thought patterns and learned behaviors that no longer serve us (and shedding physical manifestations of that baggage, to boot). Sometimes, we unearth an old wound that we weren’t even aware of before – not consciously, anyway – and much like any wound, it festers unnoticed until pain elicits us to examine it.
Sometimes, that stubborn insistence of our right to be angry is the pain radiating from that wound we didn’t know was there.
It’s amazing how often I’ve discovered one of those old wounds, and upon examining it, gotten some message from the Universe relating to that very topic, seemingly out of the blue. In my last post (linked above), I wrote about what I was feeling in the moment before I had had the “aha!” insight. Shortly thereafter, while in tears to be perfectly honest, I got a message relating to that very thing that was so clear and blatant it couldn’t have been any more obvious if God had whacked me over the head with a baseball bat. So there I was, having a low point, and I still got the positive response. However, I was at the low point because I was “detoxing,” as it were. For any of you who have done or have looked into doing a cleanse or otherwise detoxing, you’ve heard that as your body releases the old, stored toxins, sometimes it can cause what is known as a “health crisis” – that is, you feel sick from the icky things working their way through your system, but will be better off in the end as they will no longer be inside you to harm you in the future. It’s kind of like that, which is why I figure the law of attraction didn’t attract negative things from my low mood. I wasn’t letting the old pattern repeat itself – I was cleansing it from my system altogether.
Today I got another such message, from a friend’s Facebook post of all things, that wasn’t even directed at me, but it spoke to something I have been sparring with in my head for a while. It was just such a perfectly relevant message, and put in just such a way that though I had “known” it before, it hadn’t truly “registered” – it pretty much floored me for a moment. Sometimes you can “know” something, but not truly “comprehend” or “take it in.” That was what this message was for me. I can already feel the ripples making their way through my psyche, as the initial concept is accepted, and a domino effect of altering thought patterns occurs.
So though there are times when it may feel “forced,” keep at the positive thoughts. When you hit a low, examine why, and be open to whatever reason may come. If you’re spiritually detoxing, let the negativity be released. You may have a health crisis of the spirit, but you will feel so much lighter and brighter in the end.
And don’t discount any source of insight as being “too trivial” – sometimes a Facebook post, a text message, or a tweet may be just the thing that gets the gears turning.